I’m writing this, not sure if I’m even going to publish it at all. First of all, my parents have always warned me about talking too much about my health on the Internet, because of future employers and other similar scenarios. I say that’s a very last generation look on life, especially as today, everybody I know has posted something or other on their Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, sometimes even LinkedIn, hinting at their non-ideal mental health status. We’re millennials. It’s almost expected of us to have this depressing view about the world, and it keeps getting worse.
Anyways, that was a really long tangent, but there are other reasons I’m just not sure I’m going to post this, and mostly it’s just because I don’t want to talk too much about myself and for this to turn into a place for me to rant. I feel like I rant about myself too much already, and I really hate that I do that.
So. Finally. The actual post.
I’ve been reaching back into the power of my mind, visualization, meditation, brain wave frequencies, and that sort of thing, for a few days now. I was really into this at the beginning of 2018, when my life was going pretty well. However, I wasn’t yet strong enough to pull myself up when I encountered a few hurdles, most notably my eating disorder sneaking back into my life without me noticing, and I never really got myself picked up enough to get back into the state I was in before. Well, now it’s 2020…. August of 2020. And I’m sick. I’m sick of being sick! I know that I have the power in my mind to manage my mental illnesses, and maybe even cut back on my medication. In some ways, this is also affecting my physical ailments as well. Yes, I was in a car accident. Yes, my back hurts. Yes, I am under stress. Yes, the stress is real. Yes, I am doing all I can with the circumstances I have available to me. However, in my mind, I am thinking of myself as sick. There have been many miracle cases where patients have recovered from debilitating physical illnesses with the help of their mind. I am NOT saying that that was all they used, as in these cases that I am referring to, they were in the hospital and were being treated by medical professionals. However, these patients and their doctors have stated that they believe that the mindset of thinking of yourself as a healthy person goes a long way towards healing. And if it doesn’t, it certainly won’t hurt. I am not sure to the extent of which I can help my physical body recover, especially during these trying times of this global pandemic (I’m not sure if I should even call it global anymore, as it’s seeming like most of the world is controlling it pretty well), however, even if all this does is boost my mood, I know that will be worth it.
So, that’s my big self-insight for the day. And it’s a big one. Here’s to hoping I can turn my mental state more positive, even while not living on my own in an apartment with my cat, and here’s to hoping this helps with my physical pain reduction as well, because, like I said, I’m sick of being sick.
What’s one thing you’ve been introspective about lately? Tell me in the comments!
Also, disclaimer: if you or a loved one have a mental or physical illness, I am not saying that this will work for you or them. This is not intended to replace medication for me, and if taken as advice should be used under the direction of a licensed medical doctor and/or clinical psychiatrist. I am not recommending the cessation of any medicaations perscribed and managed by a licenced professional. If you are feeling like you need help in any way, I am working on updating my Contact page to include a list of help lines covering issues such as suicide, depression, anxiety, homelessness, domestic violence, and others.