I guess this probably isn’t the best time to be writing this, as I have recently been pretty disorganized. The other day I spontaneously went down to see my grandmother (totally unlike me to do things without a plan) and then got back at 5:30pm. Up until the point I got back, I remembered that I was going to check on my fruit flies for genetics lab at 7:30. However, when 7:30 rolled around, guess who wasn’t in the lab. That’s right, I remembered at about 9:30 as I was getting into bed that I was supposed to have checked the fruit flies. Oops! I also have forgotten my water bottle in genetics lab twice and took off my hat in genetics class the other day and forgot it under my chair. Last Thursday I also totally spaced on something I was supposed to photograph with another person. There weren’t many photographers at the Linfield Review meeting and even though I told them I was super busy on Thursday they still assigned me something at 8:30pm that evening (which is usually my bedtime, if you’ve read my evening routine post). When did I remember that I had to take photos at it? The next day at 5pm when I was looking at my calendar.
You know the kind, where you’ve known it’s true but never really thought about it? That’s me with a lot of things (probably more than it should be, honestly).
Today I realized that there will always be more new stuff to learn. The number of people living on earth is multiplying exponentially. Everyone will be creating new stuff. Let me explain a little bit more. On YouTube, I am following a handful of channels. Every day I go on and add some seemingly relevant and interesting videos to my Watch Later playlist. I never end up watching them all in a day, and the Watch Later playlist adds up. I keep telling myself that I will stop watching so many YouTube videos in exchange for, say, blogging more AFTER I get my Watch Later playlist down to zero videos.
Part 2: The one in where I actually do the moving (if you’ve read the Dealing with Dragons book series you will know where I got the style of the title – you also win major brownie points, as those books are awesome)
I finally moved out of college housing! I got this amazing apartment about 2 miles away from campus. Yes, it’s expensive and it costs every month. But if I break down the costs, it’s not actually a whole lot more (provided I was getting a meal plan living on campus – I know myself, I do not eat $2600 dollars of food in a semester – especially not with what they serve us on campus). I was also able to get a ton of furniture for free or pretty cheap.
This post has been a long time coming. I turned 20 in January, and somehow it’s now April. How did that happen? So I thought I’d jump on the current trend, at least on YouTube, of making a list of things you’ve learned in the ___ years that you’ve been alive. These are not by any means things that I have mastered, but more things that I am working on every day, but that are lessons I’ve learned, many of which the hard way, from living my life.
So here it goes.
I’ve been taking pictures for a very long time. I got my first point and shoot camera in 2007, and for many years after that, my friends would always tease me about being a ‘paparazzi’, because I’d literally take pictures of everything. I even found a few pictures of the sidewalk! From then until now (except for March 2015 to November 2016) I would take an average of 10 thousand pictures A YEAR! (let me tell you – going through all of them now is not fun)
I’m writing this, not sure if I’m even going to publish it at all. First of all, my parents have always warned me about talking too much about my health on the Internet, because of future employers and other similar scenarios. I say that’s a very last generation look on life, especially as today, everybody I know has posted something or other on their Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, sometimes even LinkedIn, hinting at their non-ideal mental health status. We’re millennials. It’s almost expected of us to have this depressing view about the world, and it keeps getting worse.
So I have a confession to make; I can’t post (or even show) a photo of mine without editing it. Even if it looks amazing when it’s unedited, and even when editing it makes it look a little bit worse. I don’t care if other people edit photos or not. In fact, most of the time I can’t tell if they’re edited or not.
This makes it extremely difficult for me to show my photos, as I have so many photos to edit and it’s really overwhelming.
I use Lightroom Classic to edit my photos, and even if the photos look absolutely fine when I use the auto-edit button, I need to change something about the photo, edit the shadows slider or add a bit of saturation to the red in the photo.
I think that part of the reason I’m like this is that I’ve heard through my life that photography is easy and it’s not ‘real art’ since you’re just pressing a button. Yes, photography is more than that and I don’t think that way about anyone else’s pictures, but I’m always my worst critic. I guess in a few ways, I also feel like a fraud, because photography is ‘easy’ for me, other than editing photos, which takes a while, and I feel like I always have to change something.
Along with this, I don’t consider photos taken on my phone as worthy to be posted or seen. It’s ridiculous, as my phone has a really good camera. It just feels like anyone could do it and it’s too easy.
A theme I’m seeing in this is feeling like anything I do has to be difficult in order to be nice and worth it. I am trying to work on it, and I also have a gallery for phone photos (check it out here).
I really want to share my photos, however, fear stops me from sharing them.
I am re-doing my website, and I know it’s not perfect. Please be patient while I implement the new style and design.
Do you feel this way about art, photography, or things having to be hard in order to be good? Let me know in the comments below! Do you have any tips for getting over the fears I’ve mentioned above? I’d love to hear your thoughts.
https://www.taskrabbit.com/profile/fiona-kelley/tasks … I just did my first tasks working for Task Rabbit this morning! I love it. If you are looking for someone to help around the house or anything, let me know! Use my code for $20 off. https://www.taskrabbit.com/r/56tm1/try
Today I woke up and drove from McMinnville to Beaverton for a job laying sod. I know, I’m not the person you’d expect to lay sod or do yard work. However, I was there for 3 hours and had a blast. The two people I was working with were nice and it felt good to get all muddy. Mud is good for the soul. I received a great review from the clients. As mentioned before I was there for 3 hours. I definitely got my workout for the day! Or maybe for the week…. just kidding. But my arms feel like lead jello. And laying the sod was only my first ‘task’ for the day!
Another tip! If you have long hair (like I do) braid it BEFORE starting work. It took my lovely friends (who are a lot more patient with my hair than I am) about half an hour to work their way through the tangles. Do yourself a favor and learn from my mistakes!
I then went to the next town over and cleaned a guest bathroom. I got a great review for that too! Who would have guessed? I guess I’m good at cleaning? But it was fun. The only thing I’d change is actually wearing pants with pockets so can listen to music from my phone while working.
I’d gotten so muddy laying sod that I had to go to Rite Aid to buy a cheap pair of pants because mine were super dirty. PSA: READ THE LABELS! I got a KIDS size small sweatpants. They worked, but they weren’t comfortable and I was really self-conscious. But, at least I was only cleaning a bathroom. So it worked out.
Working with Task Rabbit
Yes, these two were jobs, so I got paid. I also got a tip from each job! Apparently, I’m likable.
“Fiona was incredible. She dove right into a messy yard project and worked non-stop. She is delightful, positive attitude, hard working, attention to detail, and had great communication with us before and after our project. We will be booking her again. She’s new to TR — give her a try. You won’t be disappointed.”
“Fiona did a FANTASTIC job! It looks amazing and in record time. Thanks again Fiona!”
All in all, I’d say I had a successful day! Before I left I also worked on a project for school as well as editing photos for my work with the school newspaper.
I will post soon a review of my experiences with Task Rabbit! But I am really liking being my own boss. It’s great for me since I’m a college student and have to work around my classes. And I get to do things I enjoy! I’m still waiting for someone to hire me for organizing. Again, I’ve only had two tasks so far, and they were both today. My in-depth review will be after I’ve worked with Task Rabbit for a while.
Comment down below if you want me to do a guide on how I got hired with Task Rabbit!
Have you ever laid sod? Inquiring minds want to know.
1) Do things because you love them, not because it’s expected.
For me, this manifested a lot in wearing makeup. It also seemed like I would be liked more if I wore makeup. PSA: If someone only likes you because you started wearing makeup, they are not friends!
2) The sooner you create a personal hygiene routine, the better.
So, up until basically this year (sophomore year in college), I didn’t have a hygiene routine. Or really a routine at all, other than going on the computer. Routines do so much and have given my daily life structure. I do wish, however, that I’d started the process when I was about 13 or so. I wasn’t working, I didn’t have a ton of homework, and my bathroom at the time had a heater! (it is so much easier to take a shower at night with a heater in the bathroom).
3) Water is your friend.
I think this is an important topic, particularly with the ideas brought up in my Imposter Syndrome post. For me this shows a lot with my photography. Why should I take pictures? It’s not like they’re useful currently in my life. I love photography, but I’m not making money from it. Every once in a while, I start to doubt why I take pictures. I hardly ever do anything with them, other than sharing them on social media. Eventually, I want to be a paid photographer, but I’m not there yet. I never enter them in photo contests, and I usually take way too many.